I just said “no” to someone about being on the Pentecost committee at CTK. Last year I was part of it, and ended up being a lot more involved than I should have been… not to mention being subject to one of my biggest pet peeves- unproductive meetings / meetings with no purpose, which we had every other week for 2 months… almost drove me out of my mind.
Lately I am just feeling stretched beyond my limits – I take full responsibility for that, but nonetheless, I’m stretched. I need some more down time, time to catch up on stuff around the house, time to catch up on relationships, time to spend a day with some of the munchkins in my life… and instead I’m just stretched. Sigh. So I’m working on that whole priority thing, asking myself if its something I want to be committed to, if it accomplishes any of my goals in life… or if i’m just signing up because I can’t say no.
So when this particlar deacon approached me and asked me to be part of the Pentecost team again, I was so proud of myself… I didn’t say no outright (I’m making progress, but not that much progress). Nonetheless, I responded with a resolute, “Well, I’m not sure, I’ll have to think and pray about it before I give you an answer.” I think he was taken aback, but oh well. All this thinking and praying has confirmed my suspicion, there is no way… So today I sent him an email declining being involved and I attached all the files I generated as part of last year’s involvement so he’ll have everything at his fingertips- which really gets me out of the equation. It feels very freeing. I’m making progress anyway. 😀